Why you are here now is surely no mere coincidence or a function of fate and random chance. You are brought here for a purpose and for a reason.

Welcome to my personal blog,

CONFLICTS and TRIUMPHS
Life of a Discreet Struggling Christian Homosexual


Basically, this blog is about my life as a Christian who have been struggling in the mire of homosexuality. Through this blog, I will share with you how my life has been from the past to the present. I will share with you the conflicts and triumphs I experienced-- the events, problems, and issues I have encountered along the way; the pain, the tears and the burden of having something I don't want; the loneliness and difficulty of struggling alone; the unanswered questions, uncertainties, apprehensions, the fears and worries, etc.; and the how I dealt with all of them. I will share to you my life story beginning from my eventful early childhood, to my rough teenage years, and up to the present.

Primarily, I created this blog to be an extension of my thoughts, an avenue to express my insights and feelings, a means to share my opinions and perspectives, a vent to pour out my joys and frustrations and speak out my heart, and ultimately a way for me to personally reach out to, encourage and inspire others who are in a similar situation as I am.

To date, I still am a struggling homosexual, wrestling against this overwhelming spiritual malady for years --sometimes winning but most of the times falling. I feel tired and worn. I have done terrible things. Sin has kept me slave for the most part. Many times I find myself on the verge of quitting, even to the point of hoping to die so all of this shall end. However, the abundant grace of God, the love of Jesus, and the power of the Holy spirit keeps me right on track and always gets me back up to my feet again. God never gave up on me. Inspite of my repeated wanderings, I still feel his presence surrounding me, his arms around me. His love sustains me even in my worst times. His grace compels me not to quit but keep on. Despite the appalling force of the Devil and the overwhelming weakness of my corrupted human nature, my candle is still burning with faith and hope that with continued perseverance and trust in the Almighty God, I will come out victorious. In the end, it doesn't matter how long or short you fought or how fierce the fight was, as long as you fought a good fight and emerged triumphant.

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As of the moment, the rest of this blog is still under construction. This landing page you are viewing right now is only temporary. My very hectic schedule is preventing me from devoting the needed amount of time to finally complete and launch this blog. However, with the highest amount of certainty, I assure you that this blog will be fully functional very soon. Just hang in there. :) Better yet, bookmark this site now.

In the meantime, I would like to grab this opportunity to appeal to you. I want this blog to not only contain my life story but yours as well. I highly encourage you to write down your thoughts, personal stories, pressing issues and concerns, words of encouragements, and valuable insights on things concerning the life of a homosexual Christian. Share it here and have it published in the site for others to read. The reason for this is because I strongly believe that just like you and me, there are many other Christians out there who are silently and desperately struggling with homosexuality -- ALONE. Life can be very difficult. I can attest that there can be nothing worse than having your heart in conflict with your mind, your emotions against reason, and your life against your beliefs and ideals. For a Christian, knowing that your sexuality contradicts God's design and purpose can be very difficult and distressing which is further complicated by society's expectations, prejudice and discrimination. Having said that, it is my goal that this site be of tremendous help to all especially to those who are in pain -- unknown to their family, friends, and loved ones. My testimony, your testimony, our testimonies -- can be the very instrument the Holy Spirit will use to give them strength, courage, and the willingness and power to overcome.

You can send your literary contributions to conflictsandtriumphs@yahoo.com. Remember, sharing promotes meditation, reflection, and integration on your part. So it will not only benefit your personal and spiritual life but as well as those reading it. In fact, as i am typing these words, I feel spiritually invigorated and I feel joy recalling how good and merciful God has been amidst my faults and shortcomings. I am reminded once again that He is always there especially when you need Him most.
I believe that sharing means growing and learning. The story you share can potentially bless the lives of the readers.
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Soon, everything in this world will come to an end. Only the righteous, by God's grace, shall remain. The things in this world and all it's evil corruptions shall soon forever be banished. Worldly pleasures and moral decadence shall cease. Sadness and pain will forever be forgotten. The best is yet to come to those who stay faithful to God no matter what.

As we continue our spiritual struggle, it is worthwhile to remember that having the homosexual "tendencies" and "inclinations" is NOT sinful, but giving in to them would surely lead to sinful acts. Having a homosexual feeling and "acting" on that feeling are two different things. Acknowledging and accepting that we feel different from the rest doesn't separate us from our God. It should rather help us to deal with things squarely, maturely, and in the righteous way. The more we feel the gravity of our fallen nature and the more we feel we are a sinner, the more dependent we become on God and the closer He comes to take us by the hand.

I am a homosexual. I am a sinner just like anybody else. But I know God loves me and He will never forsake me. He knows that I was born into this sin-sick world, a victim of circumstance. I did not choose the way I am nor do I rejoice in how I feel. He sees in my heart that constant desire and the conscious effort not to give in to my unnatural desires. He knows my human nature. And so He gives more grace.

God loves the worst of sinners, forgives and receives those who are penitent, and embraces everyone who comes to him. If He loves me, surely so do you.

In our personal and spiritual warfare, let us put on a good fight. Earthly pleasures are but temporal. What is at hand is eternal. So let us not grow tired and weary. After all, with Christ Jesus on our side, we are more than conquerors!

God bless you!


"True happiness only comes from knowing you are right with God; It stems from having a close relationship with Him"

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Homosexuality: The Christian Perspective (Part 1)






Q1. What is homosexuality?
Homosexuality is the manifestation of sexual desire toward a member of one's own sex or the erotic activity with a member of the same sex. (The Greek word homos meansthe same). A lesbian is a female homosexual. More recently the term "gay" has come into popular use to refer to both sexes who are homosexuals.

Q2. How does one determine if the practice of homosexuality is right or wrong?
That depends upon who is answering the question. The Christian point of view is based solely upon the Bible, the divinely inspired Word of God. A truly Christian standard of ethics is the conduct of divine revelation, not of statistical research nor of public opinion. For the Christian, the Bible is the final authority for both belief and behaviour.

Q3. What explicitly does the Bible teach about homosexuality?
This question I consider to be basic because, if we accept God's Word on the subject of homosexuality, we benefit from His adequate answer to this problem. I am concerned only with the Christian or biblical view of homosexuality. The Bible has much to say about sex sins in general.

First, there is adultery. Adultery in the natural sense is sexual intercourse of a married person with someone other than his or her own spouse. It is condemned in both the Old and New Testaments (Exodus 20:14I Cor. 6:9, 10). Christ forbids dwelling upon the thoughts, the free play of one's imagination that leads to adultery (Matthew 5:28).
Second, there is fornication, the illicit sex acts of unmarried persons which is likewise forbidden (I Corinthians 5:1; 6:13, 18Ephesians 5:3).

Then there is homosexuality which likewise is condemned in Scripture. The Apostle Paul, writing by inspiration of the Holy Spirit, declares that homosexuality "shall not inherit the kingdom of God" (I Corinthians 6:9; 10). Now Paul does not single out the homosexual as a special offender. He includes fornicators, idolators, adulterers, thieves, covetous persons, drunkards, revilers and extortioners. And then he adds the comment that some of the Christians at Corinth had been delivered from these very practices: "And such were some of you: But ye are washed, but ye are sanctified, but ye are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and by the spirit of our God" (I Corinthians 6:11). All of the sins mentioned in this passage are condemned by God, but just as there was hope in Christ for the Corinthians, so is there hope for all of us.

Homosexuality is an illicit lust forbidden by God. He said to His people Israel, "Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination" (Leviticus 18:22). "If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them" (Leviticus 20:13). In these passages homosexuality is condemned as a prime example of sin, a sexual perversion. The Christian can neither alter God's viewpoint nor depart from it.

In the Bible sodomy is a synonym for homosexuality. God spoke plainly on the matter when He said, "There shall be no whore of the daughters of Israel, nor a sodomite of the sons of Israel" (Deuteronomy 23:17). The whore and the sodomite are in the same category. A sodomite was not an inhabitant of Sodom nor a descendant of an inhabitant of Sodom, but a man who had given himself to homosexuality, the perverted and unnatural vice for which Sodom was known. Let us look at the passages in question:
  • But before they lay down, the men of the city, even the men of Sodom, compassed the house around, both old and young, all the people from every quarter:
  • And they called unto Lot, and said unto him, Where are the men which came in to thee this night? Bring them out unto us, that we may know them.
  • And Lot went out at the door unto them, and shut the door after him, And said, I pray you, brethren, do not so wickedly.
  • Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man; let me, I pray you, bring them out unto you, and do ye to them as is good in your eyes: only unto these men do nothing; for therefore came they under the shadow of my roof. (Genesis 19:4-8)
The Hebrew word for "know" in verse 5 is yada`, a sexual term. It is used frequently to denote sexual intercourse (Genesis 4:1, 17, 25Matthew 1:24, 25). The message in the context of Genesis 19 is clear. Lot pled with the men to "do not so wickedly." Homosexuality is wickedness and must be recognized as such else there is no hope for the homosexual who is asking for help to be extricated from his perverted way of life.


Q4. You said that sexua1 intercourse outside of marriage is condemned in the Bible. How do you explain marriage ceremonies in which two persons of the same sex are united by an officiating clergyman or justice of the peace?
There are cases on record where a marriage license was issued to persons of the same sex. I recall one such incident in Phoenix, Arizona. A marriage license was issued in the Maricopa County clerk's office to two men 39 and 21 years old respectively. The two men are reported to have "married" in a private ceremony.

However, to call a union of two persons of the same sex a "marriage" is a misnomer. In the Bible, marriage is a divinely ordered institution designed to form a permanent union between one man and one woman for one purpose (among others) of procreating or propagating the human race. That was God's order in the first of such unions (Genesis 1:27, 28; 2:24Matthew 19:5). If, in His original creation of humans, God had created two persons of the same sex, there would not be a human race in existence today. The whole idea of two persons of the same sex marrying is absurd, unsound, ridiculously unreasonable, stupid. A clergyman might bless a homosexual marriage but God won't.

Q5. A Jesuit Priest, John J. McNeill, reportedly said in a conference (Christianity Today, June 3, 1977), "There is no clear condemnation of homosexual activity to be found anywhere in the Bible." How does a church leader arrive at such a conclusion?
This particular Jesuit priest, like some other supposedly Christian theologians, have totally ignored the Scriptures as the guidelines for Christian behaviour in regard to homosexuality. McNeill does not speak for the Roman Catholic Church, but for a small segment of priests who, having vowed themselves to celibacy, that is, to abstain from marriage and sexual intercourse, have found sexual gratification in homosexual acts.

However, religious sex perverts are plentiful among protestants. Protestant leaders on both sides of the Atlantic have gradually eased away from the Scriptures. In England men like Bishop John Robinson, in his book Honest to God made a play on the term "The New Morality," which in reality was a plea to open the door to immorality making it respectable and thus acceptable. The Bishop went so far as to describe the unscriptural adulterous relationship as "a kind of holy communion." This modern concept of Christian ethics rejects totally the precepts laid down by God in His Word. It is blasphemous and atheistic.

Recently in America ten homosexually oriented religious organizations, comprised of men and women from more than a dozen denominations, and from seventeen states and Canada, met at Kirkbridge, a retreat and study center near Bangor, Pennsylvania. The retreat was entitled, "Gay and Christian." But the two terms, "gay" and "Christian" are mutually exclusive, incompatible, incongruous.

Representing the women at that retreat, Nancy Krody a lesbian, spoke on "The Lesbian Christian Experience." Here again is a misnomer. A practicing Christian, from the biblical viewpoint, will not be a practicing homosexual. Of course, I make the distinction between a professing Christian and a practicing Christian. Calling one's self a Christian does not make one a Christian.

Malcolm Boyd speaks about "The Gay Male Christian Experience." Boyd, a protestant clergyman, says he has been a homosexual secretly for years. Only recently he made a public announcement of his homosexuality. He claims that his public announcement of his homosexuality has brought him back to the church. Boyd does not tell us what he means by the "church"!

Following is one point on which the speakers at Kirkbridge agreed: "A monogamous homosexual relationship characterized by fidelity, honesty and love is possible, desirable, and honoring to God."

Any evil condemned in Scripture cannot be honoring to God. Homosexual religious leaders attempt to smooth over the breaks and rough places with Christian terminology so that a euphoria predominates, but God is not in it. A truly born again person, who loves and understands the Bible as God's revelation to him, will not condone an evil that God condemns. "If ye know that He is righteous, ye know that every one that doeth righteousness is born of Him" (I John 2:29). "Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are His. And, let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity" (II Timothy 2:19). Practicing homosexuals are engaged in a divinely forbidden evil.


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Credits:
This article was written by
Lehman Strauss at www.bible.org

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